Ripped

Today, I'm still digesting these thoughts.

It's so twisted I don't know why do things like this even happen.

why is it so hard to see what you've become.

look at the things you can say, or maybe I just never knew enough.

I hope it was me not knowing enough, at least that proves the other possibility wrong.

I hope one day you'll realize, It's not about hate, it's not about anger, and it's not about putting you down. It only looks that way because, you only see it from your direction. But that doesn't really matter now does it?

All you think about are things you believe are true or what makes sense to you. Then I hope this time you are right. I hope I am the first and the last that you have to experience this.

If this ever happens again, I do hope you take your time and try to understand why it happened again. maybe then you will be much more willing to try to understand.

I know you feel that you've tried to understand, we always think that way, it's called ignorance. I've did that, everyone else has too. I'm still ignorant in many other things. I've never meant anything in a bad way. But I guess that's too late because you translated all that into something else and this is what it has become.

I don't know what to think or feel right now; hurt, disappointed, pain, anger? or just still digesting hard. I only know I feel really messed up inside like never before.

Even deciding to have space to avoid any unwanted incidences such as this. I was very I will still be the first to show up whenever there is a need; rain or shine, even if i had to drag myself up at 3 in the morning.

But now, this just re-writes everything. The ease of such thoughts and words, clearly we were both thinking 2 different things. Even insults can be used can be used to such a manner clearly shows what I am and value I have to you.

I have never felt this way before.

For all that I've tried to do, For all that was worth a good thought.

I hope you realize one day. I really do.

You're a smart person, you great at the things that you excel in. But that doesn't mean you may be right in all of your thoughts at this point in time. For all we know, the waiter serving drinks as some coffeshop might understand more in life than any of us every will.

I just want to leave this place now. Nth left for me to do here.

I never expected to feel this way.