If a monkey were to sit on the top of a tree... What would you see from down here? A Big Red Butt!

300YOU!
Shuttup!
listen.....
I said Shuttup!

Do you know waht you're doing?
Don't act like you know if you don't know.
pfffttt....
just shuttup LAH..
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Yeaps.. thats what I sometimes feel like saying to someone.
It's so obvious when everything has been laid out to make things easier to be done.
But no,.... prefer doing it the hard way....
let me suggest going back to the stone age perhaps..
Sorry for being mean but I've got so many reports from different people and I cant help but to really find it true..
from personal encounters.

trust me, your friends see it, they just dont wanna tell you.
But it seems that you like being an entertainment for others to talk about over their meals when you're not around.

I guess,
sometimes people who don't use their common sense or practice what they preace can be at the top.

I guess prolly not for the betterment of anybody..
But for the sole amusement of everybody.

the story of J

I learned something from a friend called J whom I met not too long ago.

"You win some, you lose some"

I mean I didnt lierally learned that from J.
It was more of a conlcusion I had after certain experiences.
Now when Think about the things that I encountered here rom the very first day I came.
It really is clear that you can't have everything.
Even if you were all that great, there are somethings that have to be lost when you intend to win something else.

Still waiting for that day, for that silver lining.

The picture, a few steps back

Been reviewing the whole week, about things that happened and all.
and kinda concluded.

You see, some people just have to be liked by other people.
they need to appear like as if theyre at the top of the food chain.

But sometimes, I see right through people like that.
to me, sometimes if you stand far away enough to look at the whole picture,
it's kinda amazing the kind of shows and drama's people put on just for that extra attention.

see, I' the kinda person who talks trashabout others IF I can do better.
and yes, I do prove it.

what I see, is most people tend to trash about other just to make themselves feel good.
It sound kinda cool if you're as ignorant.
But, take a step back as I said earlier, and you'll see a fools show going on.

though it's sad, but I have to admit, I'm seeing this rather often around nowadays.
I guess it's the weather.................................. NOT!

I think I should start scaring people away from me, before I start to see all their true colours.
I believe the preview I'm getting now is freaky enough.

I really miss those good old days when I'm actually around people who walk their talk.
but anyway... reality...

JCF2009

Hohohoho, I just got one of the pics of facebook, Got tagged by Joan.
Couldnt find the whole group of photos, especially the ones with Dr Lim Ho Peng in it.
Prolly have to drop by cindy's office in PMO one of this days to get em'.

it rather small to read, but is says " The Best Business Plan Project"
and a stingy RM"300"

My Chillout and Co. did it somehow!

hahahaha

Ok that was random..

Actually hrere was this Job and carrer fair going on,

And our project supervisor Ms Syarifah, asked our class if the groups wanted to be involved i a business plan presentation competition.

I was rather skepticle at first, and actually didnt have a single thought about taking part due to the amount of shitload of work I have,

But the rest of Chillout, wanted to go on with i and the rest of the class to, so Chillout joined the rest of the groups in or Section and did our thang'

judgesfrom various companies came and I had presented of no less than 9 or 10 judges from Organizatios such as, Foetus Internaional, Ricoh, BASF, Piceri, and many more. I just remembered feeling thirsty and damn exhausted after presenting for about more than 2 or 3 hours straight. presenting was really much of the thing that was exhausting, but I was handling the student coucil elections for the new term, and this got me running in and out of the hall as it was in another location.

But ea.. after the presentation were over, I actually almost made up my mind to leave, and skip the results as I just ner thought I would get a chance,.

But.....

When they released the results!!!! my tream and I got 1st!!!! awesomeness.!

A sudden surge of Pleasure shot up to my head and I got felt wide awake!

It wasnt because of the money we won, it was even about having the business plan recognized and accepted.!

But the pleasure of beating a certain group of people who decided to make life hard for everyone.

but ass for the rest of the groups, I think they did rather well, esp. Tinchew and Raymonds group, they prepared quite alot and marcellina's group, judging from thier presentation during our first round with the panel judges.

anyway... good job and well done everyone!

last year, I did MIMS! this year... no MIMS but business plan presentation in JCF!

what a way end my external academic achivements.

Thanks team! LeeYoonHenry Ng,BeeJun, and SoonKL.

I need to RANT!

I dont mean to be mean, I have good intentios, but I just feel like doing this right now.

Seriously, I dont mind checking their mistakes and helping them out.

But I just dont understand the nature of the mistakes made.

I mean, it's just as simple as either my standard is just too high, or their expectations over things are just unusually low.

I probably praised too soon.

But, I never expected such a situation where even when I made it a point for myself to help them.

There wasn't much for me to help due to the time constraint and the nature of the problems.

what's worse, no one even bothered to figure out where the problem was.

Except for the rabbit who came by later and I explained, but it doesnt really make a difference since the rabbit and I will be going off the next semester.

Who will actually learn or is intereted to learn from all this mistakes and make sure it doesnt happen again?

Or is it jsut gonna be left like tht and whoever takes over continues with the same mistakes absent mindedly?

I think people should take things a stepat a time, and not thinking about bigger challanges when challanges at the current leve are not performed up to standard.

There is a difference between doing something for the sake of doing,

and

Doing something to the very best and looking for every single mistakes to improve on.

I also seriously do not understand ow people are so short sighted and they only look at things from a close point of view instead of planning further ahead and looking at the bigger picture.

argh! 3 in the morn, Iwould have been a happy person being able to help out in a way,

but instead im realizing despite me trying to help, they didnt try to help themselves in the first place.

Immagine trying to save someone who sint even trying to swim towards your direction or at least making enough waves to grab anothers attention.

Morning coffee and a PR report.

have a Public Relations report to write... Woke up prepped myself, got a big cup of coffee (double shot), now updating blog just to wait till I'm out of McSleepy mode and get into hyper workaholic playhard/workhard McStitch mode to begin it.

Thinking of some good homecook food, how nice it would be if you actually have someone to cook for you at times like this.

*slaps self in face*

Wake up Arthur.... wake up.... stop dreaming.!

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One week ago, hahahaha I just had my first "official" tapau session for the food society with the Vice. LMAO!

Our previous "tapau" sessions during the ICRB "Independant Constitution Review Board" meetings didnt count because we never had an opening ceremony before.

So this timebefore our KB trip we did it.. I guess we just bored ourselves silly.

Napkin on the left written by me signed by Carol, Napkin on right written by Carol signed by me.

Then Tada! officiated.. but Johnny ate both Boxes.
Because Carol and I were to hungry earlier we finished up ours.
Even Kok Hoe finished his.
So for some discreet reasons johnny was the only one who got 2 boxes.

Well, if yo're wondering who the Vice is, there you go. Carol (note picture below) currently in the varsity's marketing office, also known by Johnny and I as Khong Krap Prat Ngap Tham Put Ne Chi Phiet Nyien (with a Thai accent)

Notice that before anyone picked up their forks, she was already zooming in on the dish.

My,... my.... what a glutton.!
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On other matters,

I'm currently listening to Zee Avi,

I find it pretty awsome for a Malaysian.

Born a Sarawakian, in the Island of Borneo, not those average wannabe Malay singing Malaysian Singers.

Its and english album with the exception of one song entitled "kantoi" peeps back home would know what this means.

Do try this if you're into something Jazzy. I'd say something between Norah Jones and Colbie Caillat.

Thumbs Up!

In Memory of M. Jackson

A white candle for the man whose works of music I have listened to since I was about 5 or 6 years old.

As I grew older, the songs started to slowly fade away.. but the memory remains fresh.

This is the least I could to to celebrate the Man who has influenced many others and left his mark in peoples minds.

Michael Jackson, 1958 - 2009

2nd visit to Penang

some shots taken on my second trip to Penang, early June 09'.

Miss Wincci Soo, Miss Malaysia World 2008

Wincci singing a song during the Forum Dinner I attended.

Her singing that night wasn't that great though, but still I guess good enough for some people.

On the Trishaw ride I took,

the Old uncle was zooming past traffic and jam like it was a ride in the park.

One of my favourite pictures ever taken, an old painter being watched by curious children.

Picture in partial colour for the "feel"

Random shot of a statue in front of the Khoo Kong Si Temple.

Inside Fort Cornwalls.

4 hours sleep again

Conducted the first round of interviews for the incoming stdent council candidates with my Independant Committee yesterday (IEC). Took a whole 7 hours just to finish it off at approx. 2am . By the time I got back to my room, it was already around 3. Not to mention taking a shower before going to sleep and all.

People dont seem to carry their common sense around anymore.

Well, as usual, some people complained about the wait.

But I guess they think that everything is supposed ot be easy. heck. the WAIT is PART of interview itself. F.Y.I.

Immagine me sitting in there for 7 hours straight. With the rest of my team.

you shouldn't be complaining cos youre waiting for your turn andyour expecting to get something out of the interview.

I/We dont get shit from it. and We have to continue waiting and listening even whe your turn is up.

like seriously? other than complaining over the obvious, any other options? may I suggest, get a life?

Left shelf, the third isle, next to the toilet paper... go! shoooo

I think I should put a note outside the interview room:

If you think you're busy, I'm DEAD busy. Yet, I'm still here.

Ironicly twisted in the head

I can't wait till I get my normal life back.

I really dont like this role playing shit.

It's gettin to the worst of me.

Being a friend, who is trying to be considerate,

Being a person who also has to choose and criticize to bring out anothers best just because it par of my responsibility.

Being a leader who just want someone to continue my work when I'm done with my turn.

Being who I am at what I am supposed to be at that very moment.

So many roles, just one man.

I know people will just say it'snot such a big deal and what not.

These are the people who only talk the talk and all.

Because when I do something, I prefer it do it well, and if it has already been done well, when it comes to me, I'd choose to bring the game to a higher level.

Thats me, I don't do it for the sake of doing.

I do it to leave my mark.

That means exposure to high amounts of stress and pressure.

not that I'd expect ordinary "typical Malaysian attitude" people who just "wait for shit to happen then decide what to do about it"

So far, I've learned many things, that sometimes when paying many different roles, you just have to be mean, and straight without beating around the bush, some things, you should say, and some things it's better you not say and let other find out themselves for them to learn.

But I guess most of the people here in general have a long way to go.

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Last night I was at the open area @ dining hall. I was talking with SuatLi about IEC and all, and the 14th recruitment.

We had this conversation about how or wht it is to be at the bottom of the ladder and above the ladder.

What actually hit me was, when we were talking about training her to be a much more capable person and all previously.

She mentioned that she wasn't trained.

This is what actually shocked me.

Learning in my definition here is not measured by how much a person does everything for you, or pushes you up.

I believe that is what she thinks, as I don't literally do everything for them.

But as far as I'm concerned, Learning only starts when you yourself have the desire to learn more and climb higher, your mentor will be there to cach you when you fall so all you have to do is reach higher and higher with confidence and feel secure because theres sumone there to guide you and catch you when you fall.

I am dissapointed in a way.

It seems that they expected to be spoonfed all the way.

Have I not done enough?

I remember from the very first time the team started, I was leading the way, but no one could follow my speed or catch up.

Then, I decided to let them learn and grow at their own pace.

I was always ready to back them up.

But I think now that it is pretty clear, that they do not see or understand.

I guided them and assisted every single event from the very beginning.

No appreciation, but its ok, because I know it's what I need to do.

I implemented changes to actually make things systematic or easier,

not many followed.

I started to get busy with all the other things I got involved in including the varsity events.

so meaning I have less time to assist them in things.

But still, I was there when they needed anything, they only needed to ask.

I always made sure from behind checking with officers and all regarding their progress,

just to make sure they are doing the right things.

Not forgetting cleaning up the mss and facing the "music" from others when they do something wrong.

I'm ready for that, as a matter of fact, I expected that the moment I decided to let them make their own decisions, I was ready to catch em' fall.

The questions is, just because they dont see it or feel the pressure that I do.

Does that mean I've done any less?

Do I have to go out and shout "Hey! I've done this and that for you. Without that, do you think you will succeed?"

I've even had irresponsible people who left along the way, things were bad, but I stayed for the rest.

Is this also not good enough?

I've had a Vice who always misinterprate and causes havoc with an imature attitude, even embarassing the whole team once in public. Still I stayed on an carried on for the rest of the team throughout the whole event.

Is this still not good enough?

this are the few of the many things that made me realize that I am here not only for myself but for everysingle one in there.

I am just curious, that if each and everyone had been given a chance to just re-live this few incidents that I've mentioned as me. hwo would they react and what would they have done.?

Just want to make it clear that I don't gain fom this, Im not being paid for this, I am just a volounteer, pledging myself to try and make things better.

I guess I'm sad to say, if that's what they feel, then I've failed to let them grow, what more to say teach.

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Artistic pictures taken during weekend outstation trip with the marketing trip.

sometimes I really feel like the world around me is just black and white.

This is a similar shot taken by Kok Hoe who was experimenting with my Camera.
Not bad for a starter

Guess Where.

Went outstation again with the Marketing/Teambuilding Team.
This time had Carol who just joined the Marketing Department after graduating a semester earler than me.

So considering this the first outstation trip with my Vice Presdent of the "Tapau Food Society" (inside joke we used to have when we were doing the ICRB)

Anyway, the crew was Johnny, Kok Hoe, Carol, Yat Sin and I,
A friggin 8 hours roadtrip.
Departed around noon from campus, so we arived at the destination about 11.30pm.
Dr. Sia and Ms Lillian were joining us the day after so we went on to this place which Johnny took us to and had our awesome DINNER!

Sugarcane by the bottle!

C.O.C.O.N.U.T.!

Green (unriped) Mango and Papaya salad thingy

Flaming Chicken

A closer shot

Fish...

TomYam, spicy yet satisfying

My favourite, already missing it... Pork Leg! (deepfried and crispy)

stirfried "petai" beans

Stirfried Eel!

Overall it was a tiring and exhausting event, but the food an company was great. I had time away from stressing issues and time with fun peeps.

Had some time to think in the car (8 hours to go, 8 hours coming back),

So kinda think that:

"People should stop asuming that they're greater than other people and the whole world is only about them. It's the people who are quietly doing things behind that actually make the difference happen"

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Back to reality, IEC meeting in about 2 hours, gotta go through the applicants with the other IEC committees. Hoping that disqualified people buck up an realize that I'm leading IEC but I dont make the decision for it's other committees.

Glad I've got capable assistants,

Daniel, Pei Yin, and Lu Yue, very experience people who actually have a common understanding and grasp of things as I have.

and not forgetting Joo Phong(Yu Fong), a capable secratary who does things without complain. I'm impressed.

Thanks People.

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I wanted to do a post about cc5 earlier but there so much to write about it.

CC5 was great, maybe I'll wirte about it once I finish my PR assignment.

But, before that, TinChew,SuatLi, and ErSin.

You guys were Great!

I've seen improvement in SuatLi, TinChew has moved his game up a few steps, and ErSin as from the beginning a potential, polished her skills even more.

I like what I see, Because they finally did something which I've always thought they would never experience.

And after this experience I believe that they will somehow see things as I do.

Hopefully.

Being successful this time, it give them even more courage to push the tempo up further in the future.

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6 feet from the edge

What do you do when you somehow know all you've worked for is going to crumble,
and you know it's not your decision to make.
At the same time, you're hoping that even if it crumbles, others have things going their way smoothly elsewhere.

Tell me now,
tell me how.

3 crazy weeks

just had a crazy week of assignments, then a weekend in penang for Forum, then a crazy week again, then weekend in TinChew's CC5 as camp commander. one more day tomorrow for CC5. tired, feeling sick, burned out amd hoping t have enough energy in a few days time to write about it.

I'll be back!

Hopeless

How do you judge what is deserving for someone?

Why have I tried my best and yet, I got the worst?

out of all of us who fell into the sea, why am I the only one without a float?

I dont know wht to say, I am speechless.
I was motivated, and even further determined when I first found out something good was coming my way,
Then in the end, it all got taken away, in exchanged for misery.

Losing hope.
I'm thinking of giving up.
I gave more than and ordinary student,
I gave academicly, and actively,
why? for the only reason I know...

I may not be perfect at what I do as no one is..
But I will do it as well as I can if its up to me.

Thats what I used to believe.

Im sorry I guess thats all taken away now.

Whatever happened today, Burned a hole in my world and left its mark.

breaking point

I just spoke to mum on the phone.
Our conversation was short and brief.

She asked me a random question, one I had realized for sometime already.
I just gave an honest answere,

one that might not be as pleasing to the ear, although it wasnt meant to be harsh,
I knew it hurts, it even hurts for me to say.

We got into those short aruments that usually happens,
She misunderstood as usual, and I ended up trying to make things easier as I usually do.
The whole routine went on with her denying the fact.
My point is, I wasnt blaming anyone, I'm just hoping they would see the picture as I do.

Then I guess, I managed to save the conversation by saying yes and no to avoid another argument.

We went on to current things, talked about my younger bro, talked about me having the hardest time always, learning everything from scratch, without having sumone to properly guide me.
how every fall made me to what I am today, how every mistake thought me how to think.

My life was never easy, It was hard growing to accept myself knowing the truth.
Once I accepted it, something else always seems to happen to pull me down.
I never had anyone lifting me up when I was young, the only motivation I had was,
"I'm doing this because I want tomorrow to be better than yesterday"
And I'm still burning that same line in me today.

Then we talked about about my dad and her.
It more than obvious that they are getting old.
I wish I could help, In anyway I could.
But what am I to do?
I've hardly finished my Degree, and even when I do in August.
I don't think I'm ready for all this.

IM NOT READY...
Why do I have to be responsible for so many things in my life,
Why can't my life just be normal.
Why?

Why must there be so much pressure all raound?
out of 360 can tehre be just one place where I can find a moment, a person, a place, a situation that I can just pause everything and not feel stressed or worry about tomorrow?

PLEASE!

BaZhang! aka Rice Dumplings

So I was told its the rice dumpling season again...

So heres some of what I had, some given, some bought.

Academic awesomeness...

Congratulations to my 2 friends who graduated one semester earlier than me.
Carol and Yumiko, CONGRATS!

I've just found out a few hours ago, that they got their 1st Class Honors!!!
how nice...

As a matter of fact I think their section broke the record with 5 1st Class Honors achieved in one semester for our Hertfordshire Progamme.

Now I'm feeling so much more preassured.....

Current standard.. I'm so far away from being near a 1st class holder.
=((

So happy for you girls.... but scared for myself.
stupid mixed feelings.

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Lesson from my story.
Not to get too close or attached.
The truth may and usually is to much for you to accept.
Why come closer and ruin it in the first place?
Confused.

Was just talking to Lionel in Melbourne. Havn't had much time to chat and catch up previously. Finally today I had some time after 6pm lecture.

Talked about plans, talked about future and all the uncertain things, we're prolly going through.
Friggin' uncertainties.
Missed those good times to the max.
So in ned of this tme out where we would just go to a place we can call the "usual spot" or bar hopping and drink ourselves silly and chill.
Awsome.
Let the LALA boys and SoHai girls do the clubbing while we watch them, laugh and make stupid jokes about them.

Well, I guess im doing ok this few days, just need to freshen up abit. feellin lethargic.
Just complited and assignment and handed it in. few more to go.

I hope my special friend is ok too... (you know who you are)
mekmekmekmek.

oh.. and I saw Aubai yesterday at the concourse, boxing. I used to train with him bfore this, untill I got so tied up with all this shit im in now and don't have time.
Even if I had the time to train I need to wake up so early the next day and it's pretty tiring. So we usually train from 10pm till 2am, thus making it not practical for me. =(
I miss boxing so much. I still have my gear and hand wraps hung on my wall here, to remind me, I used to have it to release stress. I guess thts why now Im so much crankier.

Hoping all goes well for now. term ends.. I get my life back.

He

Is very sorry.
Is feeling very bad.
He was very motivaed and wanted to make this day at least a better one for a special person after what happened the night before.
He even decided to get a lil' sumthin' to cheer that person up too.
But, he just screwed up, He just couldnt push his own frustrations and confusions far back enough.
And now he feels, horrible, he didn't tried hard enough.
He misses that bubbly person.
that silly smile and stupid laugh.
He thinks he just made things worse for that person.

How he wishes, he could turn back time,
back to the time where things weren't so messy and confusing,
Maybe he could have met this person before all this, and it wouldn't be so hard.
He knows he 's a mess up, but he just wants to help that person back again.
He's found something special in that person.

He was asked a question.
the answere is, no, he does want to talk, he does choose to whom to talk to.
not many there are, but that person was definitely the first that came to mind.
It's not about the absence of trust perhaps,
He says he is trying to lear how to trust, maybe trusting that person is the easier part.
He just doesn't know how to take words from the heart,
and let them out his mouth.

He has thought about it ever since, that person left.
Maybe he's just making things worse, He doesn't want that.
He'd do anything capable to make it better, but it proved to be a failure.
He is very sorry and it aches to not be able to do anything.
He decided not to affect others until he fixes himself.
He has to go away.

He wants to talk to you.
He wants you to cheer up.
But he is just a dreamer and a thinker.
He may not show it, but it doesn't mean he does not want to.

He has never felt this regretful over what he is before.

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Still finding it hard to trust people.
Wants to be alone.
Does not want to talk to people.

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=(

Lethargic

Having dinner at 12.20am isn't part of the plan.
I don't want this.
What happened to my resolution upon entering Uni. to be a NERD.
AAaaaAaAaRrrrRrGggHhhhh.!

Letter to an old friend

Old Friend,
It brings me pleasure knowing you've reached another level in life.
Words cannot express how much joy I feel
knowing your dreams are in you grasp.
Neither can it replace your role in my life
making me realize how every choice we make leads to a different ending.
With that said, I am indeed, glad about the choices made before.
Wishing you all the best.
And thank you for leading me down this road.
I've been through hard times, and pleasant times.
But nonetheless, I am glad.
Glad that this road too, has much to offer,
Maybe one day, I too will end up just like you,
Being where I want to be.
Congratulations and Thank You.

@rth.

Of ice skating and cold ass bitches =)

Yesterday, Went out so Sunway with Max,YiWei and Quai to catch a movie. "Sell out" not quite the kind of movie we expected. So yea, wouldn't wanna talk much about it either.

Well before that, after lunch at Wendy's I ended up skating with Quai and her friends (Nicole,Joe and Woon Yee) not sure if i got the names right but, yeah. This time I, Didn't fall!!!! nyehekznyehekznyehekz.... They're a pretty nice and whacky bunch, and Nicole is so...so much like Melissa, yes as in Lionels sister, Melissa Yeo! starting to miss this two people in melbourne already. Dang!

Anyway, so guess who fell and wet her bubuts!!

HaHAHa Quai fell and wet her BUTT! I have Pictures of that cold butt! but I think I shall not post it as I would prolly get more severe bite bruises in future, and I shall try being a nice person for a day as she aways claims that I am mean. -_-!!!

So we watched the movie with her wet pants and walked around the mall for abit, with her being concious about her butt the whole time. hahahaha how cute but yeah. It was fun.

so had dinner at Subang, Asia Cafe, ordered quite alot, but the crabs tunred out to be not as good as expected. ah well. Something rather unusual happened on the way back in the car.
I fell asleep! I guess I really just am mentally tired without realizing it. Anyway, THANKS MAX, for the ride.

This picture was already uploaded to facebook by the time I woke up.

Me,Quai,WoonYee and Joe (Nicole took the pic)

Just my opinion: INTI Ball 2009

So as most student would have already known that the varsity is going to have it Ball/Prom McThingy going on, Lead by the Student Council, the 13th INTIMA.

Word is already out that the theme is "Infinite Momento" sounds strong, and making a statement eh. Well, lets jsut hope it does really turn out to be an infinite momento, because if it doesn't. Well, you know how things would end...

My point is, doesn't it sound rather cliché? well, I mean, it's just my opinion.

And to make things much more confusing, I've sort of come across people asking me, is it really gonna be De Wedding?"

So I'm assuming that the theme is "De Wedding" or was it The Wedding" Either spelling can be accepted, but my point is:

Infinite Momento : De/The Wedding.

Yeaps that as a name of the Ball and the theme.

Like seriously, people, Im I the only one having an opinion about this or what?

Apparently the feedback I got from some random people is that "The Wedding" isn't such an appropriate theme. Well, I sort of agree to that. I think that the theme is abit far fetched, I mean is Uni/College, and I'd rather have a theme that is matured, yet simple at the same time, leaving room for immagination and interpretation.

Nuff' said bout that, so I decided to start immagining,

Just immagined that if I were to run a ball, how would it be.

I think I'd go with Black and White, accompanied by hints of Gold and and Purple for colours.

and I managed to find the exact color theme I was looking for, just for the benefit of those who can't Immagine. so below is a picture of a ballroom with my mentioned colours, wlthough abit strong on the purple but yeah, it's close.

Photo compliments of WCC.

Then after, I got carried away and started designing, and creating a theme for the ball and what not.

See, I would rather put a theme such as, "Just One Last Dance" accompanied with a picutre which rather reflects the theme and sets the mood for the Ball. The male and female figure black leaving room for interpretation, as it could be anyone, the gold background could simpy mean, how grand, or a memorable moment and all. and straightforward mature theme.

And guess what, I even thought of a theme song, "Just One Last Dance" by Sarah Connor.

I added the song into my playlist on the right of my blog, so those who have never heard of it can help yourselves.

Designed by" ME ME ME ME ME!

But then again, this is all if it was my thing.
Just my opinion, do share your opinions if you do have any, alright people.

I'm pretty sure the organizing committee is "trying very hard" to make this event an interesting and memorable one. So do "try" to support them. ok?!
Got To Go!

Portraits, experimenting with colours and textures

These are a few compilation of shots starting from the journey to Ipoh in the car, to Penang, and also back on campus facilitating OLE Week at the sports hall for the freshmen.

Experimenting with angles on the first two pictures, and as for theother portrait pictures, I just tried out some color, and texture effects.

Thank You, to those who actually stood still and posed for me. =)

There are still a few more pictures, yet to be uploaded, need time to play around with colours and textures and mybe figure out new techniques.

So apparently, time is something I don't have much of now, with this tight schedule.

Will upload more next time.

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One of the Gardens @ Kek Lok Si, Penang

Inside one of the temples/shrine @ Kek Lok Si, Penang.

Wai Quai, taken outside Yi Wei's house @ Penang.

Quai, in the car on the way to Ipoh.

Quai, garden at Yi Wei's house @ Penang.

Suzanne from Melacca, March intake Freshie, @ sports hall.

Claryn also from Melacca, and March intake freshie @ Sports Hall

Justin G, Senior cum. freshie @ KLIA

Sharmeen, May intake freshie @ KLIA

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I'd like to end this post with a Quote:

"Beauty in things exists merely in the mind which contemplates them."
- David Hume, 1742

The balance

Academic Official Personal

Trying to balance all issues at once.

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Since I was a kid, I've always wanted to fly away,

I wanted to be away from this place, away from the people,

Out to some foreign country perhaps.

I complained about the weather, I complained about the peoples attitude,

I also complained about the nature of things here.

I tried to love this country. I tried to love it's people.

Till this day, I am sad to say I am still trying.

Sometimes I wished my family had just moved on

to another country or place far far away.

But when I grew older I realized, things were not that simple.

So then I decided that the only way I would be able to do that is through education.

But even through education the only way at the expense of dad and mom.

And I never agree to being a burden to others. Especially not my parrents.

Now, that wasn't really a plan, so here I am now,

slightly further from where I started,

yet not far enough, it maybe saperated by sea.

But I think people here sometimes are far worse.

Seriously I think our two states are better off saperated by that sea.

Although I have to admit, I have met some quality people here.

Just a handful...

So I still hope that one day I will be able to get where I want to.

With my own effort, Without being a burden to others.

I'm not a Rich Snobby City Boy, Neither am I an Ignorant Rural fool.

I'm just that boy at the corner trying to reach his dreams.

Needa workout.

Tryn' to sweat it out instead of bleedin' it out.

Three words.
Awsomeness. Refreshed. and Relieved.

Tho' maybe only temporary.
This will have to do.

talking the talk

This are for the

arseshitholemutherfuckinfuckfaces

who think My Life Is An Easy Piece of Shit.

I know you've got action, and I havn't shown much moves.

But let me enlighten your little minds, my apologies if I've overstated it's size.

That, it takes more brains to synchronize your actions and get you out of shit, and being ready to take the fall on your behalf. Than what it takes for you to move that finger of yours.

I face the Faces, I hear the rants, and I also have to Watch yer' muther effin' steps.

tha ain't enough?
ask youselves who else does that?

Check.!

So you think you walk, the walk.
But can you mutherfuckin' talk, the talk?

I know I havnt gone all in with my cards.
But I'm not a fool who goes all in with my cards for no fuckin' reason and risks it all.
I've got Aces in my hand fool' But I ain't layin em' down till I see the fourth Ace on the table.
So dont complain and whine if its you who's not showin me that ace.

So I don't feel like talking, Im starting it was a mistake in the frist place,

Check!.

It wasn't my choice to be where I am.
I never begged or dreamt for it.
ask yourself honestly, would you even survive being me for a day?

Check!

GUESS NOT!
-Period-

Mother's Day 2009

To Mum, GrandMa, Aunts, and Candy Jie, and all the moms arond the world.

Especially the strong single moms I know of.

Surprisingly, the number single moms I've know in my life has made me realize how strong they are and gained my respect.

Happy Mothers Day.

I Dedicate this pictures to all of you.

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I had maggi for my meal today, called mum for awhile. and did random stuff in room.

Weather was kiling me, and I think im getting a sore throat.

Fortunately, someone created the cellphone many years ago, enabling people to sms.

there I managed to pass time for abit.

With who is non of your business. ;) Nyek.

For a moment I wished I was back home.

Or maybe I wished I had The car over here, then I could go driving off to random places.

Having my car rides like I used to, back home.

For me, Car rides are sometimes a soothing thing.

Its like a passion, where I can just shut my mind and focus on the road.

Doing 140 but it all feels so slow.

I remember back at home when I used to go car rides in the middle of the night with Lionel Yeo.

And not forgetting the Random late night car rides to the lok-lok stall with Sheila.

I miss those days.

I miss the "sotz in the head" group of people.

I miss the people. the people I grew up with.

Random thoughts... random thoughts...

Heaven's door

KNOCK KNOCK,
Knocking on Heaven's door...

Night Market theraphy

Currently listening to "A Lonely September" by Plain White T's.

After listening to it several times, I started to get carried away by the lyrics.

I guess..

Anyway. Gonna head out to the nightmarket with Max and Co. later on in the evening.

I was actually planning to go myself like what I usually do.

I'd just put on my earphones and let my mp3 play while i just walk through the crowd. and let my mind wonder away, stop by a stall or two grab a drink and continue walking.

I've been practicing this for a few semesters in a row, cause' I kinda find this therapeutic in a way. It helps give me some personal time, especally for the past few semesters. So If I've ever ditched anyone who has asked me to join them on a market night, and I said I'd go alone, don't take it personal, it's just me. sorry bout' that.

So for tonight, I decided to tag along with Max when he mentioned it this afternoon over lunch.

I guess, I'll Just leave the personal session for next week.

Was in UPO, the university placement office after lunch. browsing random info. about uni's over in US and UK. and some thoughts just hit me.

Like as if I already dont have enough on my mind.

Why do I have to carry all this.

Why?

I don't feel normal at all.

Sometimes, you just feel like you need a shoulder and a big warm hug a some quiet time.

But I guess such scenarios are non-existant in my not so normal life.

Im carying this bag which feels so heavy,

The problem is, I only know half of its contents,

The extra weight just decided to join in along the way.

Like seeing and helping people getting of their problems.

But I just can't seem to get rid of my own.

I care for some people, But I can never seem to learn how am I supposed to care for myself.

I just hope I can focus hard enough and get through this second half of my final year just like the previous semester.

Trying hard not to think, But there will be a day where I'll have to make the decisions.

Till then....

I guess now I'm just glad I've someone I can trust. (you know who you are, and no.. the first reaction may not always be the true one, sometimes it's just shock or inability to figure out an appropriate reaction. Nyeh =))

Thank you.

Just checkin'

Check,

I just turned 22 not so long ago,

Check,

So how much have I achieved since then?

Check,

Have I become a much more motivatd and determined person or have I gotten worse?

Check,

I have previously set out to find out means of motivating myself or a reason to believe.

Check,

Have I found it?

Check,

I guess my glass is still half empty.

yes, reality check.

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Random quote from the web:

There are times, when I think you are the most beautiful girl in the world,
and there are times when I'm sober.

Numb and fuzzy

Was it my flu? or was it the meds I took.
Whatever it is, im feelin' all fuzzy and numb right now.
I think I'm enjoying this feeling as it isolates me from all the noise around me.
Saparates me to my own world.
Everything around me moves so slowly, things people say don't really matter.
cause all I see are lips moving and muffled voices.
In this very world of my own.
My brain goes wild, as I wonder away.
wonder away from reality, crossing that bridge between illusion and reality.
I just need that time... I just need that reason...
Till I find it then..

The silver lining

The eyes are the window to your soul,

Please don't cry, for that would be like clouds stealing away the clear blue sky.

This cloud that blocks away sunlight from reaching a beautiful garden full of flowers.

It's just a phase,

The silver lining isn't that far away.

My time here and future is unknown.

Just hope that I'll be around to see the sun in those eyes again.

With that, I wish you sleep tight tonight.

Because tomorrow is gonna be another day.